[NVC Day 14, Early Morning] -- [And So the Sun Rises] -- [Open to All]

[kirktastic]

After a long night at the theater, meeting Spock and his brother, and everything afterwards, it had been difficult to sleep. Along with the tickets, Jim had received a message about the trial's start the next morning. He had refused to let it bother him all night, just wanting to enjoy some time with Bones despite everything they had been forced to go through recently.

That didn't make for good sleep, though. Sometime before dawn, Jim found himself wide awake, laying in bed, Bones curled up against his side dead asleep. It took some work to get himself out of Bones' arms, not wanting to disturbing the sleeping man, before he grabbed his discarded robe over the back of a chair and pulling it on. He brushed a kiss over Bones' hair, affectionate while no one could see it, and stepped outside.

The deck was level with the ground, so it was no trouble to walk out onto the deck and past it, out towards the beautiful area that surrounded their guest quarters. Jim had a working theory that because the Vulcans had been on a desert planet before, without the ability to use plant life because of the strain of water consumption, that now that they could they decided to use planets as much as possible. He wondered how logical it was, but decided that knowing Vulcans to a degree, they would find a way to make it logical and convince everyone else in the process. The thought made him smile, just slightly, as he found himself a low wall that faced the ocean and sat down.

It was both easier and harder to think while he watched the sun rise, watching the ripples of orange, red, and pink climb higher in the sky. So much hinged on this trial, one he would be going to each day of. He had choices to make about it, as such a major player in what had happened. He would have to explain his actions to the court and by addition, Starfleet.

Let me have done the right thing.

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[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Well, so much for being subtle. Tactic number 2. "Do you love him?"

[nawigator]

Fine, two could play at that game "Do you love Doctor McCoy?" She turned the question back on him.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

The answer was simple, at least. He wondered when it had gotten easier to say, "Yes."

[nawigator]

Pasha raised an eyebrow at that. "I am glad that one of us is certain." She noted, shuffling her feet.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"So you don't know if you love Sulu. How about something less drastic... do you like him as more than a friend?" He gestured a little with his hand.

[nawigator]

"Definately." That much she was sure of at least. Pasha seemed remarkably less then happy about this.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Jim tapped a finger on his knee, thinking. "Is there some reason why you don't want to feel like that?" When did I become a therapist?

[nawigator]

"Because." That really wasn't much of a reason. But in her mind there were far too many reasons to have a proper sensible conversation about it all.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Jim just kept giving her that look, waiting for more.

[nawigator]

She had always been weak under pressure. "The other Hikaru and Pavel." Pasha started with the issue that loomed so greatly in her mind when thinking about Hikaru "They were in a relationship, yes? But they newer quite seemed....happy." She bit her lip, thinking about it. "Also, I know that it is veird for him that I hawe boobs now." Blunt Ensign was very blunt.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"You mean... the ones that had been from this universe?" The ones he had fought beside, the one he had saved.

"...at least their nice boobs?"

[nawigator]

She nodded "Yes, those pair."

With Jim's final comment she burst out laughing once again "I think I am supposed to be offended or something now, but honestly I agree vith you."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"Better when you're smiling." Combined with a bit of relief that she wasn't offended. "Just as a hint," he leaned in close, whispering, "men like a woman who's sure of herself." As if he was breaking a conspiracy telling her.

But back to a sadder subject, "...I don't know everything about the Sulu and Chekov that left and their relationship, but I do know that having Harold around was making it break apart. That's why they seemed unhappy."

[nawigator]

"Oh, really? Not that I ewer noticed myself or anything." Pasha replied dryly.

"In the long term if a relationship vith me vould make Hikaru unhappy, then I vould rather not be in a relationship vith him." She noted. It was selfish reasoning but it was something she felt very deeply. Pasha would rather have a best friend with hurt feelings then an ex-best friend who resented her.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Jim wanted to whap Pasha in the back of the head to make her see sense. "That isn't what I'm saying! Before Harold got involved, Chekov and Sulu seemed quite happy together."

[nawigator]

"Exactly. The addition of an anomaly in their relationship equated in unhappiness." Pasha always had a tendency to weigh important things up in terms of mathematics, it was just how she functioned. A few days back she had even attempted an equation to figure out if a relationship could potentially work. The sum of the equation hadn’t exactly instilled her with hope.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Jim gave her a dead look, his voice quiet. "Look, Pasha. If you feel like he's your friend, and you don't find something more in him worth turning into something more, then you need to make it clear now before he gets any more hurt. If he's really your friend? He'll understand, and things will return to what they should be."

"But if there's something more there, and the only thing holding you back is fear, you need to grow some and go for it. I don't mean going to him now and fucking him, I mean give it a chance. Go on a date, a real date. Try giving him a real kiss, not just after you sucker punched him. You can't use any other relationship, not even one of your counterparts, to see that it is an example of how yours will go. If that was true, I'd be with Spock instead of Bones like Jim was. Is." ...Okay, that was complicated, but the idea worked out in his head.

"Don't fear the unknown. That isn't the Chekov I know, boobs or not. After all, you could be missing out on something amazing. You'll never know until you give it a shot. Not all things turn out to be shit if the relationship doesn't work out, either." Not that he had a lot of experience in it, but, "I've known plenty of people that are still friends with fuck buddies, exs, even after a divorce."

[nawigator]

She was silent for a long while, allowing Jim's words to sink in. What he was saying did make sense. Heck, it made more sense then the majority of her equations did.

Then she spoke quitely "I only punched him a little."

"Ewen if I did not like Hikaru, vhich I do, I highly doubt that thing could go back to normal betveen us right now. Not that such a happening vould be a bad thing but there vould alvays be this big awkward thing vith us, and that vould be not wery good." Pasha sighed. "I know I hawe been a coward but...if it had of been someone else, this vould hawe been so much easier. I genuinely care about him, more than a best friend."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

His lips quirked at her comment about the punch. He listened quietly, then reached out and squeezed her arm. "Pasha, the only way you're going to get rid of that awkward thing is to give it a shot. Either it works out, and you have something more... or it doesn't, and you might go back to being good friends without the awkward thing. Or it doesn't, and you might lose him. Either way, 2 out of the 3 means you get something you want."

[nawigator]

"I know that." She replied glumly. "I calculated probabilities all last veek." Pasha sighed and leant heavily against the wall "Vell vhatewer, vhat happens vill happen and all that." She waved an airy hand to punctuate her point.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"So, are you going to give it a shot?" He asked, brows going up. "Some things only happen if you urge them to."

[nawigator]

Pasha gnawed on her inner cheek again. "I think it might be a fortuitous idea to do so. If it goes vrong then...I am pretty sure ve vill be okay." Damnit, why weren't there any rulebooks to dating best friends? Pasha liked rules, you couldn't go wrong if you had rules and regulations to follow.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"Take it from someone who did the same thing... just take it slow. No need to rush into anything at all. If he tries to rush it, I give you permission as Captain to kick him in the nuts." He smirked, trying to ease her back into a smile.

[nawigator]

Pasha winced before laughing "Now ewen I am not that mean." Getting kicked in the groin was one thing she did not miss whatsoever.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

There was that smile, making him laugh as well. "Go ahead and finish your run, I think it's about time I wake up sleepy bones." A play on the name, meant.