[Captain's Personal Log]

Short, simple, but something in me says I should record this. Fuck, because I think if I don't I won't remember it.

Bones is still asleep, that's why this is so soft.

I dreamed I was taking the Kobayashi Maru all over again. Except it wasn't the Kobayashi Maru. It was the Farragut. I sat there and played with lives not my own. Even eating that same fucking apple.

I made all the wrong choices. The Farragut blew, taking its crew with it. I had failed the test. Everyone turned away from me, blaming me for it. I couldn't figure out why, until they told me it had really happened.

I woke up, sweating, breathing hard. Three hundred twenty? Seems like a much fucking smaller number now.

Did I fail the test? Recording finished.

[Kirk's Quarters] -- [TOS!Spock and Kirk]

[OOC: This is happening at sort of an unknown time of the day, so give it some general time allowance. After Kirk woke up with Bones and got the day started, but before he went and interrogated the prisoners.]

Kirk leaned back from the comm after asking Spock, the older Spock, the middle Spock?, to come up to his quarters. Honestly, he wasn't even fully sure why he had asked the Vulcan to come up, but felt it was something he had to do. He wanted to see if he could get some insight into his own Spock's mind by picking another one, maybe.

Maybe it was cheating, but well, he was good at that.

He enjoyed the other man's company, that was for sure. There was an easiness he felt around the older Spock that he was fairly sure had everything to do with the feelings/memories left behind by the oldest of the four half-Vulcans on board. He also wanted to ask about what had happened down in sickbay, wanted to know how to stop the strange part-bond going on in his head.

So he sat back, holding a cup of coffee between his palms, eyes closed as he waited.

[Interrogations in the Brig]

[OOC: Happening sometime after the talk with Mr. Spock, but happening at the same time for time's sake. XD]

Kirk waited just outside of the hallway of the brig, talking with the guard on watch quietly. He didn't want the people down in the brig proper to know he was there. They had sound and cameras ready to go, so Kirk could listen in and watch on each cell, its occupant, and who they were talking to.

This was not something he was looking forward to, but he had information to work with now. Information against at least one very dangerous person, and one possibly less so.

( Private Communication to Commander Spock )

[Engineering, Lower Decks] -- [Kirk and Enterprise]

Kirk couldn't even stand himself when he left the brig. He found himself walking, just walking in any direction, away from people, away from signs of any sort of life. He growled to himself and turned a corridor to make sure he kept away from anyone. The Captain had to be perfect. Couldn't show emotions like this.

Maybe a mother fucking Vulcan should just be in charge. Seemed awfully happy to tell Pike that!

So occupied with his thoughts was Kirk that when he focused on where he was, it took him a few seconds to realize he had gotten his way down to engineering. Good. He could be down here and no one would know.

He found himself a place that was out of the way and just tucked himself up against a wall, near a silent and unknown console, listening to the deep hum of the ship that was far louder down here. "...I've fucked up." He said to no one at all, closing his eyes. He slammed a fist into his knee, growling again.

[OOC: Takes place after the fight with Spock in the brig.]