[A Stupid Hot Mess] -- [Kirk and Bones]

[kirktastic]

After the communication with Bones, Kirk already knew this was going to not go well. He had left a last note to Bones, giving him the location of a small lounge near the residential area. It was supposed to be for ambassadors, but hell, he was Captain. He could use it, and he could lock it down.

He also knew the replicator had access to the alcoholic menu.

He flopped down with a grunt into a heavily padded chair and closed his eyes. His left hand was throbbing slowly in time with his heart beat, and he told it to leave him alone. This was the absolute last thing he ever wanted to be doing.

And Bones was forcing him to. Fuck.

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[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"...no." His voice, if it was even possible, grew tighter. "I'll just lock up in my quarters or something for the day." It was hard to sound more unhappy and blank at exactly the same time.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Can I keep you company?"

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"Would I ever say no? It's tradition." Kirk chuckled a little, "Little different I guess, though. Can't... get away from it all."

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Yeah... thought we had one more big trip in us before heading up here. Wanted to go back to that place in Mexico, the one near that big lake."

Camping and fishing and sleeping under the stars and not seeing another soul for miles and miles... it might not have been everyone's ideal way of spending the holidays, but it was perfect for them.

"Funny how things change in a year." Bones gave him a measured glance, a hint of a smile. "Some good changes too, though."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

He had a feeling he knew what Bones meant by that bit of a cryptic last statement. "Definitely." He agreed as he started to play with edge of his seat. "Man, I would have loved to have gone back there. We just got those collapsible fishing rods last year that would have been perfect."

They had learned how to gut and cook fish on their second Christmas together, after an attempt on the first one had gone... less then well.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Another time," Bones promised with a grin. Those were nice fishing rods, and they'd needed new ones after that 'incident' with the first set they bought. "Got the stuff packed up somewhere. Might find a warm place to camp out somewhere out there in the void, you never know."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"I'd go in a heartbeat." Kirk admitted with a small sigh. "Gonna miss being able to do it." He looked upwards, "But we'll be able to go again when we're done our five year."

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

Finishing his drink, he picked up the bottle and refilled both their glasses. "Seems like a long time from now," he answered. "Can't imagine it, being out in space for five years."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"It won't be that long in the course of our whole lives... but long, now." Kirk murmured. "We'll all be together. We'll do it together."

"No more after this." Kirk muttered, tilting the glass to indicate what he meant. He didn't want to be entirely sober honestly, but he was the captain and he wouldn't let himself get soused. "Probably medicate ourselves with this a little too much. Makes talking about this shit easier."

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Probably right," Bones agreed. He looked at the glass, and frowned. "George say anything to you 'bout this?" he asked, holding up the clear liquid.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"George?" That surprised him, "No, George didn't mention anything about alcohol." He gave Bones a confused look.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Hmph," Bones made a small noise.

After a minute he explained with a small shrug. "He's um, worried about me. Thinks I drink too much."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Kirk almost said You do before stopped himself. "Have you been getting drunk with him a lot?"

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Not really," Bones replied slow. "But he's not stupid, and if he's talked to Sam..."

Bones gave a little sigh. "I wasn't in the best shape while you two were gone."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Fuck. Kirk reached down and literally hauled Bones up, forcing him to look. "How much did you drink, Bones?" He asked, brows furrowing heavily as he stared at his friend. "What happened while I was gone?"

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"What do you think?" Bones answered, a little defensively, then softened his look and his voice. "You know how I get," he added. "It was like that." Maybe worse.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"...if you keep pestering me for details, I want ones from you." Kirk rumbled unhappily, his eyes very focused.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"What do you want to know? That I wasn't eating, wasn't sleeping. Falling back on my favorite crutch when I needed it most? None of that was as bad as what you were going through, so it doesn't matter. Just- just drop it."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Kirk let out a breath and just about whispered, "The only man who can remove his CMO from his position is the captain."

Turning the tables, making Bones realize he wasn't allowed to do this either, specially if he couldn't get away with it. It was something Kirk was good at, and everyone hated him for it.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"You think you got cause?" Bones retorted angrily. "You want someone else here?"

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"The point is I can't have you dissolving into a mess if something happens to me!" Kirk snapped back, "No more then I can stop being Captain if something happens to you! It fucking killed me when we couldn't get in contact with you on Juxta, but that didn't stop me!"

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Did I or did I not fix you when you got back?" Bones replied coldly. "You complaining about the care you received, Jim?"

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Kirk twitched, "What if something happened when I was on that fucking ship, Bones? What if Nero had attacked and they needed your skill? Could you honestly say you would have been ready?"

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

"Yes, I would have," Bones replied. "I wasn't fuckin' falling over myself, Jim. If you think I'd do that, if you don't trust me then you should replace me."

He took a deep breath and stared back at Kirk. "You got something to say to be about my drinking, then say it. You say don't like 'what -if's' so don't throw them back at me."

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

"I'm saying you can't be drinking when stuff is going on that is so important!" Kirk growled back, giving him a stare. "I spent three years in the academy with you Bones. I know when you drink, and it's when stuff's at its worst."