With those words, Kirk felt his own heart stop. It didn't take a genius to realize just what Spock was insinuating with those words. He stood up sharply, feeling a mix of anger and disbelief mixing together hot in his chest. "The fuck, Spock?! You're better then suicide! You're better then having to be court martialed!" He stepped forward, straight into the Vulcan's space-bubble, eyes narrowed. Kirk reached out and grabbed Spock's wrist, turning the other around so their eyes would meet.