[Kirk's Quarters] -- [Knock to Enter]

[kirktastic]

*is silently sitting in his quarters, a padd tucked up on his lap being ignored*

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[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

*growls a little* I don't want to be bound to him forever. I didn't know about it, so stop riding my ass about it! I was just trying to help!

Not like you didn't seem to be enjoying some of it!

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

Shut up, Kirk.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

*blinks, looking sharply to Bones, who he can't remember ever calling him Kirk* ...

*just looks away* Maybe you should go, Leonard.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that would make it easier for you, wouldn't it. You were the one who wanted to talk the other day. *raises his hands* Why not talk now?

You know, I think you like me acting like some jealous girlfriend. You like knowing that I'm always going to be there, no matter what you do or who you do it with. That's gotta be some sorta rush, knowing that I can walk in on you fucking a Vulcan, and I'm still gonna be there the next day wanting to patch you up.

*stands* If there is something you feel guilty about, then deal with it. I'm not gonna let you make me feel bad for what happened, for any of it.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Excuse me?! This is coming from the man who's run away from every conversation we've had in the last few days?

Dammit I don't want to be fighting with you! I don't know what is wrong between us but it feels like that time I accidentally brought home a girl and fucked her in our room and you hated me for a week until I begged you to stop.

The only 'rush' is knowing that I have my best friend that's at my back and I can trust him to always be there! Do you suddenly not want to be that, anymore!? *sounds almost.. frightened* I thought that being there the same for you was enough but I guess not.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

Who's fighting! I'm not fighting! I'm just trying to get you to see that you have to stop. Stop doing it all on your own. Stop trying to save the world on your own!

Goddamnit - *puts his hands in his head* - didn't I just tell you I was always gonna be there? It's like you're not even listening to me. *looks up, hands on his face, staring at Jim* *starts chuckling to himself, covers his face as he groans and laughs*

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

ARG! I just don't understand you sometimes. You are fighting! At least you're yelling! This wasn't me just trying to save the world, I just wanted to help him!

...I do listen to you...

Fuck, dammit. *just turns away, not sure what to do. It feels like he's coming apart at the seams*

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

*scrubs his face with one hand and sighs* Jim... Jim, stop. Just- stop. Alright? I'm not yelling. No more yelling. Just- just talking, okay?

*folds his hands in front of him again* *maybe they needed to take a step back* Did anything about last night bother you?

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

...talking, right. *sighs, sagging* I hate fighting with you.

...Yea. I knew you wouldn't want it, that's why I tried to hypo him before he caught my hand. I didn't want you to have to do something you didn't want to.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

We're not fighting... we just talk loud sometimes.

That wasn't your decision to make, Jim. I'm a big boy, I can say no. *catches Jim's eyes* I can even take care of myself sometimes.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

I know it wasn't my decision... dammit. *holds Bones' eyes for a second, then looks away* I know that you wouldn't have sex with Spock normally, so I didn't want you to have to do it under... weird circumstances.

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

*returns the stare* But you would?

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

*pause* Would I what? ...Have sex with Spock normally?

[dctr-mccoy.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[kirktastic.livejournal.com]

Sure as fuck not our Spock.

...older Spock? I dunno. I like him, he's a friend. Sometimes it's hard to tell if things are because of... *touches his temple, indicating the mind-meld from the Ambassador* or if its just normal. This, though... feels right as a friendship. Kinda feel easy around him.

...Why the hell are we discussing this? *a very slight grin, trying to make things normal*