"No," said Chris instantly. "You're not wrong. You've got every right to feel like that. You've had a rough time of it and a lot of that is a consequence of things she did. Or didn't do. And there's not a hell of a lot that can make up for those years."

He sighed silently. "I just hope you understand that grief and shock can really mess a person up - and that she regrets it and she wants to try, when you and Sam are ready to, if you ever are. And she doesn't really hate you. She gets defensive and says what she thinks you expect to hear."