kirktastic | [The Last Morning] -- [Risa] -- [Kirk and Bones]

The water... Bones knew vaguely that this was all engineered, this paradise, but he couldn't help but wondering how they managed to keep the water at the perfect temperature. Not too warm, but so inviting.

He found a spot that was shallow enough where he could sit, and flopped down with a sigh, splashing some water in Kirk's direction.

Edited 2009-08-27 22:43 (UTC)

That made Kirk smirk and he splashed back, then pounce over onto his lover and kiss him slowly. Nothing fierce and needing, just slow, warm, like the tide around them. He knelt, feeling the wet sand spreading under his knees.

He sighed softly into the kiss and leaned their foreheads together.

Two weeks ago, things were so different. Being here, playing in the water with an affectionate Kirk like this would have been unimaginable. A fantasy, maybe, but definitely outside the realm of reality.

But now? After the last twenty-four hours, McCoy was willing to go on some faith that anything was possible.

Wrapping his arms around Kirk, he pulled him closer so they could sit together, Kirk's back to Bones' chest, Bones resting his chin on Kirk's shoulder. "We should come back one day," he whispered in his ear.

It was as close to vocalizing what he felt as he was gonna get, but Bones thought that in light of the last few days, Kirk might allow him to get away with it.

The words echoed exactly what Kirk was thinking, so he smiled as they watched the sun together. "...We should." He agreed, very softly. It was the closest thing to commitment he had ever said in his life.

It was just warmth and Bones and the ocean and the rest of the existence very far away.

That answer... Bones held him tighter, not saying anything but fuck, that's what he wanted to hear. That Kirk was thinking about it, about him, like that.

They'd be heading on board soon and everything would change, it had to. They couldn't be like this on the ship - well, maybe inside their bedrooms, but even then, the ship was always there, problems were always there.

"Are you packed?" he asked, the sun rising in the sky telling him that daylight was burning. Time was moving on, whether Bones wanted it to or not.

"Most of the way." Kirk murmured, sliding a hand down Bones' arm so he could link their hands together. Just a bit longer, a few more hours, before they had to return to being Captain and CMO, wearing the mantles of those titles and the burdens that came with it.

"Hey, Bones?" A thought was nudging at him, causing him to smirk just slightly. "You think things'll be the same back on the ship? With us?" A laugh made him shake slightly, "Think we can still have the same kinda fun we had the other night?"

So much had happened during the week, so many experiences that it took a moment to register which night Kirk was referring to - that (http://sehlatbear.livejournal.com/11679.html) one. "You liked that, did ya," he chuckled nervously.

The nervousness that came into his friend's voice made Kirk shift slightly, glancing at the other's face from the corner of his eye. "...Didn't you?" Now there was some worry in his tones. He had thought...

The arms around Kirk tightened. "Yeah," Bones said quietly into Jim's shoulder. "It was different, Jim," he continued, "and I'd be lying if I said that wasn't amazing. More than amazing."

He took another breath, closing his eyes as he remembered the feeling, the bond between them all. "But I don't think I could do that with just anyone, you know?" Like you probably could, he added in his head.

He touched Kirk's fingertips with his own. "But you wanting me there... it means the world to me. More than you know." He snickered softly. "Did that answer your question? I don't even know if it did or not."

Kirk was silent as he thought about Bones' words, taking them in. Finally, slowly, he smiled. "...Honestly, I'd be happy if you were there for any time." A hesitation, "That sounds ridiculously perverted even for me and maybe it is." He couldn't help his laugh.

"I mean... want you to be a part of it. Know about it. Whoever I end up in bed with. It was a fuck ton better being able to be there at the end of the night with you." He knew what it sounded like. Like he was just a whore. But... at least he was an honest one. He had no problems with what he liked to do.

"Jim," Bones chuckled softly, "that might be the most fucked up and most romantic thing I've ever heard." He kissed Kirk's neck twice. "I love that you want me there, and maybe if I were a better person, more open-minded I could be that man for you, but I'm not. I'm me, and I just want to be with you."

Bones put his head on Kirk's shoulder. "I mean, yeah, if you want to play once in a while, I'm probably more amenable to it now than I was a week ago," the smile was evident in his voice, "but - fuck, I don't know what to tell you." He gave a tighter hug before exhaling. "I don't think I can be there for you like that. At least, not yet, not right now."

He brought their laced fingers up to his mouth, turning Kirk's body slightly as he kissed his fingertips. "'m sorry."

"Fucked up and romantic. Describes my sex life." Kirk chuckled a little, then said quietly but more seriously, "I... I didn't mean... fuck. Bones, you know I suck at saying this stuff. I'm not asking you to be there. I'm just.. saying." He slumped just a little, his gaze sliding away from Bones.

He was terrible at doing any of this sort of shit and had always avoided it or put it off with sex. Bones... was just more important then that. He'd face it, do it, for Bones. Didn't mean it didn't suck ass having to do.

"...just having you there, with Jim and Spock... meant a lot. More then I know how to fucking say."

"You say it just fine, Jim," Bones told him. "I know what you mean," he touched Kirk's cheek, "and I think you know what I'm feeling, right? I'd do anything for you, you know that."

He kissed him gentle on the forehead. "How about this," he murmured, a small, shy smile as he pushed a strand of wet hair out of Kirk's face. "I promise not to try and change you if you say you won't get bored of me."

Bones pressed his mouth against Kirk's. "Sound like a deal, James?" he whispered, grinning at hearing Jim's name come out of his mouth.

Hearing his full first name from Bones' lips made him shiver and kiss Bones back for just a moment before laying their foreheads together, lips brushing when he spoke, "I'll never get bored of you. Sex is sex, Bones... this is way more then that. I've had three years to know I'll never get bored of you." His voice was very quiet, so quiet, that no one else in the universe could hear him except the one person it was meant for.

Their kisses were even slower than before, languid and tender. "And I don't want to change anything about you," he answered back just as softly. " Don't want someone that looks like you... I want you, my Jim, always. Just the way you are, promise you."

Edited 2009-08-28 04:37 (UTC)

Kirk brought up a hand and slid it slowly through Bones' hair, sighing slowly into the kiss. Someone who looked like him. Jim, he guessed Bones meant. Those words rang in his head. 'I want you, always.' 'Promise you.' The idea of them was so strange, so foreign... could someone really want him forever? Did that really happen?

It didn't take a genius to figure out what was going on in that head of his. Bones knew that Kirk was as new to all of this as he was, even more scared maybe, given his history of people leaving him. The last thing he wanted this morning was to be sad or worried about the future. Despite their potenial issues, things had never looked brighter.

"So," he rumbled low in his throat. "Someone went shopping when he was on the planet," Bones chuckled, turning to fully face Kirk, water splashing around them as he moved. "I admit, my favorite part was the red bow."

That rumbling tone always did something to him - unless it preceded a hypo. Kirk watched Bones with a tiny smile on his lips, bringing a knee up and leaning his forearm on it. "Oh yea? I'm no good at wrapping, so I thought the bow would work." His eyes were dancing in complete amusement even with his dry tone.

"What the hell am I gonna do to top that next year on your birthday?" Bones chuckled, another bear hug, holding Kirk close.

That dissolved Kirk into laughter, hugging Bones in return. What he had flinched from with his father, he sunk into greedily with his friend. Quick a mix from more then three years ago when he had accidentally given Bones a black eye for hugging him. "You don't have to top anything." He muttered, nosing his way up to the other's ear. Fuck, he felt different here. Or maybe it was just Bones himself. Looser. Easier. ...and not in that way.

"Fuck that," he laughed. "I gotta come up with something really good or I'll never hear the end of it..." The sun was moving higher now but neither man moved to leave. If anything, they moved closer to each other.

"This week, Jim... I want you to know, being here like this- the cabin, the solitude, that- that trip up the mountain on the bike," a blush beginning in his face, "um, that night with the others, then last night at the bar, you know... This morning was just the last of a week of experiences I don't even know how to describe, except to say thank you. It's been more than I ever thought I'd have with anyone again, after... well, you know," he added quietly.

"Yea." He knew, at least some of it. Bones had mentioned things over the years, more when he was drunk, but Kirk didn't know all of it. That was fine with him, Bones didn't know everything about him either. Everyone had their secrets.

"...You don't need to thank me." Kirk smiled, looking to Bones quietly, "I wanted to. I wanted to with you."

"No, I kinda do need to say it. This..." he pointed at the beach house - "that wasn't-"

Bones stopped, the ability to complete sentences seeming to leave him the longer he stayed in the water. Finally, he took a breath and just said it. "You're amazing, Jim, and you need to hear that everyday." And I'm gonna make sure you hear it, every night before you go to sleep, he added to himself, pulling Kirk closer for another of those slow kisses of his, addicting like a drug.

He didn't want to leave. But... they couldn't stay here forever. "You ready for the meeting tonight?" he asked, trying to bring himself back to reality slowly. The meeting. The ship. Back in space this time tomorrow. "Anything I can help you with?"

A tiny sound escaped Kirk and he looked away a little, "Bones, I don't need to hear it..." And quickly turned that almost vulnerability to something else, he grinned, "You'll make my ego swell up."

He looked back to his friend, "I've got everything ready for it." Kirk slowly leaned back, watching his friend and lover in the surf. "...should be a big surprise for a lot of people."

"But maybe I need to say it," he whispered into his temple. "And that ego of yours doesn't need me. I refuse to be held resposible for that big head of yours."

"Now, this on the other hand..." one hand slid down into the water, sliding up Kirk's thigh and giving his cock a squeeze. "This - I'd like to help with this swelling, on a very regular basis."

[The Last Morning] -- [Risa] -- [Kirk and Bones]

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