"Fucked up and romantic. Describes my sex life." Kirk chuckled a little, then said quietly but more seriously, "I... I didn't mean... fuck. Bones, you know I suck at saying this stuff. I'm not asking you to be there. I'm just.. saying." He slumped just a little, his gaze sliding away from Bones.

He was terrible at doing any of this sort of shit and had always avoided it or put it off with sex. Bones... was just more important then that. He'd face it, do it, for Bones. Didn't mean it didn't suck ass having to do.

"...just having you there, with Jim and Spock... meant a lot. More then I know how to fucking say."