"You were fucking physically unharmed but you're being such a fucking idiot about all of this! You asked me to trust you, you fucking asshole, you asked me to trust you again and I gave you the chance! I trusted you to be able to separate yourself from that fucker because you told me you could!"

Kirk knew he was rambling but just didn't give a shit. He'd been wrong. Wrong about all of this. Wrong about thinking Spock was okay enough to come back down here. Wrong about thinking they could do this. Wrong about Spock not lying to him, about Spock being a traitor to him...